..well it's been quite a while now..been tru depression, frustration, hatred, pain and uncertainty...i am now certain of what i want..certain of the things i want to do..the things that i want..and certain of the person i want to be with for the rest of my life....
just when you thought that all hope is gone...certain things happened that shed a new light to your life..when you thought that you have lost the ability to love..it happened!..ironic but it does...just when you were about to give up on that segment...things happened..unexpected things!...
i realized that all this while i have been hiding behind a name,,,a name that most of my FB friends knew me with..LordMusan...i realized that when i tot the name was supposed to be cool..supposed to be strong..supposed to be confident and can face anything..it was just not me..coz i am Roslan m Shapri..the person who is real..the one who hid behind LordMusan...well..i guess this is it..no more hiding and starts living as myself again n able to withstand anything...to face anything that will come and i know now...i AM Roslan M Shapri..the real deal...
...all started from just a simple hello...and now everything changed..my perception towards life..towards being with another..towards being in love again...but will this work..we will always have our doubts but even this doesn't work..i am happy and never will regret all that has happened and that will happened ..i don't know but i there's a strong feeling that this will be the ultimate or in other words..the things that i have been looking for all my life...
i thank God for giving me this..i thank God for testing me throughout the years and i realized it made me a better man...i have no regrets anymore..i accepted that everything that happened for a reason and no matter how bitter or how bad it could be..it will always be for the best..and today i realized..and i saw why all these things happened to me ...
well..to cut things short..my life could not have been better now..all that i worked for is showing results..my angles still knows me as their papa...and i know things are going to change for the better...this could be my turning point..a point where i will no longer rely on anyone..no longer be treated like a doormat..no more pain and hatred and i finally got over everything....it has not been easy but i finally got over it...and life has never been better..alhamdulillah...
well..work is just fine..being alone for now is just fine..and knowing that there is someone there that is always willing to be there when you need someone...hmmm..no amount of money could give you that...
i know that and i admit..bad things happened for a reason..hurts like hell but once you get to a stage where you can accept and come to terms with whats happening...new opportunity opens up for you..you meet new people...new faces that you can't seems to notice before this..and the most of all..you actually know what you are capable of and what you have been missing all this while....
well..now all i have to do is full speed forward...in life, in the things that involves my love for my little angels..my care and love for the one who changed my perception on everything..my perception on life and my perception on the thing call love...
at this age..you just don't have time to be like who you were 20 years ago..in another year i will be 40 and they say life begins at forty..but i don't intend to only start life at that age cause what i taught before i had a life but i was wrong..i admit..had my wonderful moments i can deny..but to me now..life begins right now at this very moment..and i don't have to wait till i m forty to start my life...
i am grateful for everything Allah has given me...and i m grateful to Him for making me see what life is all about..what human really is and what your heart can do for you...
well..once again..I AM Roslan M Shapri..i AM Happy....and LordMusan will be away..but he will be just fine...
life is sweet when your heart is filled with love..hope..wishes and the experiences from your past..teaches you that not every single things that happened to you..bad things i mean..is the end of your life..the end of the world...sometimes when you least expected...b.e.a.u.t.i.f.u.l things happened....b.e.a.u.t.i.f.u.l people shows up in your life..unexpectedly...
well..the past will be the past..it can hurt..it can destroy you but I chose not to..and to me ...its Now and moving forward to the future..what's left of it i guess....but cherish and enjoy the moments given to you now..and you will not regret when you are in the future...
will talk to you guys soon ..hopefully...anyhow..
salam and greetings from Roslan M Shapri....
just when you thought that all hope is gone...certain things happened that shed a new light to your life..when you thought that you have lost the ability to love..it happened!..ironic but it does...just when you were about to give up on that segment...things happened..unexpected things!...
i realized that all this while i have been hiding behind a name,,,a name that most of my FB friends knew me with..LordMusan...i realized that when i tot the name was supposed to be cool..supposed to be strong..supposed to be confident and can face anything..it was just not me..coz i am Roslan m Shapri..the person who is real..the one who hid behind LordMusan...well..i guess this is it..no more hiding and starts living as myself again n able to withstand anything...to face anything that will come and i know now...i AM Roslan M Shapri..the real deal...
...all started from just a simple hello...and now everything changed..my perception towards life..towards being with another..towards being in love again...but will this work..we will always have our doubts but even this doesn't work..i am happy and never will regret all that has happened and that will happened ..i don't know but i there's a strong feeling that this will be the ultimate or in other words..the things that i have been looking for all my life...
i thank God for giving me this..i thank God for testing me throughout the years and i realized it made me a better man...i have no regrets anymore..i accepted that everything that happened for a reason and no matter how bitter or how bad it could be..it will always be for the best..and today i realized..and i saw why all these things happened to me ...
well..to cut things short..my life could not have been better now..all that i worked for is showing results..my angles still knows me as their papa...and i know things are going to change for the better...this could be my turning point..a point where i will no longer rely on anyone..no longer be treated like a doormat..no more pain and hatred and i finally got over everything....it has not been easy but i finally got over it...and life has never been better..alhamdulillah...
well..work is just fine..being alone for now is just fine..and knowing that there is someone there that is always willing to be there when you need someone...hmmm..no amount of money could give you that...
i know that and i admit..bad things happened for a reason..hurts like hell but once you get to a stage where you can accept and come to terms with whats happening...new opportunity opens up for you..you meet new people...new faces that you can't seems to notice before this..and the most of all..you actually know what you are capable of and what you have been missing all this while....
well..now all i have to do is full speed forward...in life, in the things that involves my love for my little angels..my care and love for the one who changed my perception on everything..my perception on life and my perception on the thing call love...
at this age..you just don't have time to be like who you were 20 years ago..in another year i will be 40 and they say life begins at forty..but i don't intend to only start life at that age cause what i taught before i had a life but i was wrong..i admit..had my wonderful moments i can deny..but to me now..life begins right now at this very moment..and i don't have to wait till i m forty to start my life...
i am grateful for everything Allah has given me...and i m grateful to Him for making me see what life is all about..what human really is and what your heart can do for you...
well..once again..I AM Roslan M Shapri..i AM Happy....and LordMusan will be away..but he will be just fine...
life is sweet when your heart is filled with love..hope..wishes and the experiences from your past..teaches you that not every single things that happened to you..bad things i mean..is the end of your life..the end of the world...sometimes when you least expected...b.e.a.u.t.i.f.u.l things happened....b.e.a.u.t.i.f.u.l people shows up in your life..unexpectedly...
well..the past will be the past..it can hurt..it can destroy you but I chose not to..and to me ...its Now and moving forward to the future..what's left of it i guess....but cherish and enjoy the moments given to you now..and you will not regret when you are in the future...
will talk to you guys soon ..hopefully...anyhow..
salam and greetings from Roslan M Shapri....
