I Was A Happy Man......

It's been quite a while since i ever wrote on anything ..in fact its been so long since i wrote anything except for the posts on my walls in FB. So, many things happened these past few months and whether i like it or not i had to go through it and really have to face it. I have been through a few phases in the past months. You couldn't imagine what i had to go through but i guess there are even worst cases compared to me but what the heck..Here goes...Let me start with the things i can still remember....cause after all that has happened to me seems like i have lost some memories or incidents of my past..sort of like temporary amnesia or could it be that my subconscious mind automatically blocked all these bad memories ..only God knows..still baffles me as to why i still can't recall some things that happened..

I was a very happy man before this even though i had my ups and downs. Happy cause i had a life..happy cause i thought that i had a life actually but i did have a good life..Not too grand..not too small but a normal happy life. I had a wife whom i thought was the perfect woman for me for the rest of my life, i had three beautiful kids whom i call my angels and my butterflies, i had a decent home, i had decent cars, i had a salaried job which put food on the table even though at that time i was always trying to make ends meet, I've got some friends even though not too close but still friends but i was a happy,happy man. Happy when theres a wife at home waiting for me, happy where there was my three little angels running up to me with their giggles and laughter and i was a truly happy man.I felt like my life was fulfilled with everything that i ever wanted.

All those changed ..like i like to say it..in the blink of an eye..not that it happened that fast but as far as i can recall, it was as fast as that..the blink of an eye..or before you can finish the sentence..What the....!..and poof!!..everything was gone!Disappeared!Kapoof!..just like Houdini or Copperfield did their vanishing act..just like that!.I'm not blaming anyone now for what's happened to me but i guess i just need to put it up somewhere...sometimes i felt that i need to just bury the hatchet, forgive and forget but i know by writing this down for the whole world..or the whole cyber world to read i have already buried the hatchet and also i know that i have come to terms with my feelings and whatever happened to me.I am not looking for answers.I am not looking for opinions and I am certainly not looking for sympathy or empathy or whatever pathy there is but i just felt like writing....cause i have past that phase...

i used to blame others or whatever is around me or my surroundings but after a while i soon realized that all of these could be due to my own mistakes. I realized that i got too comfortable with everything and i fail to realize that to put too much trust on anyone is a fatal mistake or ...hmm i could be wrong with this but like a friend of mine said shit happens!!

Well, from a very happy man i became worse in stages..or you could say..deteriorating in few phases. From a very happy man i started to be the saddest person on earth,full of frustration & dissatisfaction, full of hatred and anger (..i guess some of you noticed this on my FB wall postings before..:)..silly of me when i thought of it now but thanks to a special FB friend that always keeps an eye on me during this time..thanks sheila and another person whom shall not be named..hehe!)

Full of vengeance and always thinking of ways to get even and always telling myself that all these should not have happened cause i was a very good husband, a very good man and i never did anything to jeopardize my marriage..every single moments were filled with Why?..with What?..with How?..with every little questions that was always in my mind...i was always looking for answers..always looking for reasons..always looking for proof..always looking....BUT i fail to see that it was already the end of my marriage..my family and i know that i won't have all those things anymore..never again with the same person or the same life i used to have!

Now i began to see that there are more to life than what i have lost. My kids will always be my flesh and blood no matter where they are.no matter who they are with and no matter what they will become.Always..they will be my angels and my children..So, i have realized that by accepting what happened and just be glad that i still have them even though physically they are not with me is good enough and this could be the key to my happiness even when i am all alone.

So now..i have an ex wife whom are always giving excuses or whatever story she can concoct every time i want to be with my kids but i am alright with that. Don't get me wrong.Even if she is no longer my wife,she is still a good mother where our kids are her utmost priority or it could possibly because of her surroundings and environment that made her be like what she is now or most probably she is afraid that i might take away our kids and she will then be left alone..hmm..possibly that is the reason why she is being super possessive when it comes to the kids but hey..i m their father too!..Yes..i admit. I am not an angel or a good provider to my kids now and i am not trying to defend myself or tell the whole world that i m a super father..no..i m still trying to make ends meet..especially when i have to start all over again from scratch but i try to fulfill whatever needs that my kids have.

So, from a person whom thought that had everything to a person who does not have anything now.No wife,no children.no nothing but i m glad and always thankful(..now that i have already come to my senses..eventhough too terribly kurus now!) that i still have my life, my ability to work, my ability to use my brains and my skills, my ability to be happy even though i am alone..but now i accept it as...that's life bro!..either you make it or you break it but if you broke it the first time try again and if you broke it again you keep on trying harder..so, here i am now..again trying even harder..but now with a different focus on life..for myself and especially for my kids...only time will tell and i know all these hard work and effort i put in now will eventually pay me soon.

Yet again i can only plan and struggle and try my very best but in the end it's always His prerogative...to me the two most important thing i hold on to or you could call it my utmost principles are,You must be clear of your conscience with the right intentions or 'nawaitu' and i must always believe that how hard i try,how hard i chose to struggle in the end its always His decision to make it mine or not...like i always say..no matter how hard you work for it if it's not yours it will never be yours but you must keep on trying..keep on working for it cause He is the Most Merciful..!

So that is how i look at things right now. I use to tell myself that i will never be involve with any woman again.'Never' i said.Well, thats a lie. Out of anger and frustration i said all those or was it becasue i was hoping that my ex will be back with me again..hmm...Silly me again! I never thought that i would fall again for any woman but i actually did... even though i might never be with her (..for whatever reasons i don't know!..:))and this changed my whole perspective again. It started to give me hope..not on hope to be married again and have a woamn next to me every night (..eventhough that would be awesome!..lol) but hope on the other finer things in life. Hope that tells me that this is not the end of the world for me and i still can make it once again. The kind of hope that boosts my confidence, my dignity, my self respect.I might not be with her in the future or i might or i might be with someone else or maybe not but i have to accept this as part of life and i m happy with the arrangements now...so, it may work or it may not work but like i always told her ..we make the best of the current situation and enjoy every happy moments we could have together and we just leave everything else to Him...so be it!(..and it actually didn't work for whatever reasons too..hahahaha!..well..you win some ,you lose some..!!:)..December 13th,09)

I admit i have said bad things, harsh words to the person i used to love during these trying moments. I realized that i should not have done all those things, said all those words but i did those out of anger, frustrations, disappointments and many more reasons that i could think of but like i said..i was looking for reasons or looking for a reason to justify my actions or my words. I AM TRULY SORRY & i apologize for every single thing i said and for the time where you wasted your life with me...I m truly sorry!I m doing this publicly and i hope you are reading this...and i DO hope you are happy with your choices and your life..sincerely!

So, that was basically what i have to say or actually things that i could remember or felt like writing now. This could have a continuation or it may not but i am quite happy with my life now. I know my kids loves me and always thought of me all the time and vice versa.I know that i will always love my angels...and i know that somewhere there is a person that cares or at least shows that she cares and loves me..and i am a happy..quite a happy man again. So, the focus now is to try and make it right this time. make tons of money, make the greatest life i could ever have..and who knows..i might be with the one that truly adores me as who i am and who is willing to sacrifice and live the rest of her life for me..:)..apologize for all these mushy things..well..i AM a Libra!!...cheerios!

yours truly

LordMusan @ roslanshapri

It's Time To Make It Happen!!.............

..why i recommend Virgin Coconut Oil?What's all the fuss about these products?

VIRGIN COCONUT OIL - THE BEST OIL ON EARTH!

..a few friends on FB asked me why do i keep promoting my links for this Virgin Coconut Oil products that i am a member of?They asked me if its the money that i am after?Or will this scheme really make me rich?

hmmm..questions that i will not answer but read on why i believe these products are the best i have ever come across so far...the money? hmmm..if its there and i can earn..why not,eh?

Ok..first case. I have been looking for other alternative health products for my mother.She is a diabetic and she is now on insulin injections everyday. She has a big box of medication which she gets her supplies from the local GH and trust me, you don't want to see that happening to your loved ones especially your own mother. All this while she kept telling me bout her diabetes..how difficult she has to go through each day with back aches, lack of energy, controlled diet, the insulin jabs, tons of medicines she had to take everyday but her sugar level is still high and seems like its never reducing but kept increasing everyday she went for her monthly check up and to get her supplies at the GH.

So, one day i stumble upon this website DESAKU BIOASLI. It was accidental cause at that time i was surfing the net for 'other' health supplements..:) but when i read through their website i found out that the product that they produce can cure diabetes among other health problems. So, i registered for free, email them and told them about my mother's condition and in 24 hours they called back and suggested that my mother starts on this Virgin Coconut Oil + Habbatus Sauda Capsule (VCOP) plan plus this Herb Tea, Ficus Detoldia + Orthosiphon+Stevia (Misai Kucing Herbal Tea).The instruction to consume is as below:~

First 7 Days (To consume)

Misai Kucing Herbal Tea - One sachet in hot water (Just a normal tea cup) and make it as thick as you can and drink every morning for the first seven days everyday without fail.
VCOP - Take four capsules in the morning and four capsules in the evening. (If you can stomach the taste of Virgin Coconut Oil, then you can take the oil form orally)

After 7 days (To consume)
Misai Kucing Herbal Tea - One sachet to a pot of hot water and can be drank all day.Just add hot water everytime you felt like having a hot herbal tea.
VCOP - Take 4 capsules a day (morning or evening - up to you)

The results:
14 days after that, my mom was scheduled for a check up. She went as usual and t her surprise her sugar level dropped. Then only she realized that for the past 7 days, the back ache and the lack of energy is no longer a problem to her and she didn't even realized that. She told me and the doctor that she took the VCOP during sahur and she can stand fasting the hold day without feeling lethargic.She had the energy to walk through Jalan TAR with my sister for her raya shopping..hehe..and she is now an avid fan of the VCOP and kept reminding me to order for her so that she won't be out of stock.

I am glad that it actually worked for her just like thousands others whom have tried the products.

click on the link here and scroll down and click to testimonies for testimonials from other users:

http://www.bio-asli.com/?id=musannetwork

As for her skin condition, since she started with the plan, i ordered her the VCOP oil and she used it for external use all over her body. For diabetics, even a small cut can turn ugly and painful. After a week using the VCOP oil her cuts and bruises started to heal and her dry skin became much better and starts to heal.

Why i am telling you all this? this is to answer the questions asked by some of my skeptical friends on FB.I am not here for the money but for the benefits of virgin coconut oil. The same product that gives my mom hope and a bit of happiness in her life.I just wanted to share this with other diabetics around the world either you yourself are suffering from this or your loved ones....and the best of all...IT DOESN'T COST YOU AN ARM AND A LEG...its a Malaysian product and the Virgin coconut oil are processed organically and for Muslims..its HALAL!

As for me, i took the VCOP capsules everyday and i honestly recommend this to all those who travels extensively, those whom are having lack of sleep due to job demands, those whom are always lethargic or lack of energy and those who need that extra boost when you have something going on...seriously, it works for me.Gives me energy and keeps me alert.e.g.i took 4 capsules, starts driving to Perlis at around 2am, reached Perlis, settle some work and attended a few meetings and headed back to KL and reached KL around 4pm and i slept in the car whilst my partner drove for only half hour and when i reached Kl that afternoon, i still have lots of energy to do other things.This is what i went through with just 4 capsules of VCOP before the journey.

So, i hope this answers most of the questions asked by most people on why i do this and why i kept promoting my link not as other links i have.

So, to cut things short, i recommend the plan as listed below. Honestly, i dont have time to take your order, to pack it nicely and send it to you.You can just click on the link i provide below, register for free and browse throgh the products or jus follow the instructions on how to purchase. You can also read on the benefits of each products either for your health or even for your sexual health needs(...haven't tried this yet but i am sure it works too!;))

For Diabetics:
01 Misai Kucing Herbal Tea (THSMM)
01 Virgin Coconut Oil + Habbatus Sauda Capsules(CVCO)
01 Virgin Coconut Oil + Habbatus Sauda (VCOHS) - For External Usage(Can be consumed orally too)

These 3 items cost less than a RM100 for members (Only RM90.00 for this three items and it will be delivered right to your doorsteps the next working day)

For Health Supplements (Energy Booster & Disease Prevention)
01 Virgin Coconut Oil + Habbatus Sauda (CVCO)
01 Virgin Coconut Oil + Habbatus Sauda (VCOHS) - For your whole body.

Ok.To get your own VCO products you can click on the link below, register, browse through, order, make payments online and items will be delivered to you the next working day:~

For Malaysians, click on this link

http://www.bio-asli.com/?id=musannetwork

For International Buyers, click on this link;(PayPal & Credit Cards Accepted)
MoneyBack Guarantee!!

http://www.bioasli.co.uk/?ref=musannetwork

or you can also click on this link for more information on the products(For International Buyers):

http://www.bio-asli.com/?id=musannetwork

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..my butterflies...

...my little butterflies...

...why aren't you here with me my little butterflies.... ...i missed your little smiles... ..oh my butterflies..my little angels... i missed your sweet smell...

........why am i far away from you...my butterflies...
..why do tears flow on my cheeks every time i thought of you...
...why do my heart hurts when i don't hear your little voices....
..come and fly to me...oh my sweet butterflies....
.....wheres the sweet sound of my little ones...
..i don't know how am i going to through this...

...damn..i miss your laughter...your giggles...your cries..... ...i promise you my butterflies... ......all of you will be with me ..my angels... ..we will all go through this..my babies...

..you're the reason for me to breathe...
..the reason for me to wake up...
.........the reason for me to go on....
..i miss you..my angels..my butterflies...my life!

..i love you....i miss you my sweet butterflies....

love,
papa

Quotes...Break Up Quotes & Sayings...

A break up is like a broken mirror. It is better to leave it broken than hurt yourself to fix it.

No matter who broke your heart, or how long it takes to heal, you’ll never get through it without your friends.

Nothing hurts more than realizing he meant everything to you, but you meant nothing to him.

It takes a couple seconds to say Hello, but forever to say Goodbye.

Take away love and our earth is a tomb.

Relationships are like glass. Sometimes it’s better to leave them broken than try to hurt yourself putting it back together.

The heart was made to be broken.

Everyone tells me I should forget about you, you don’t deserve me. They’re right, you don’t deserve me, but I deserve you.

When you break up, your whole identity is shattered. You are no longer alive.

I don’t miss him, I miss who I thought he was.

It’s hard to tell your mind to stop loving someone when your heart still does.

I just broke up with someone and the last thing she said to me was “You’ll never find anyone like me again!” I’m thinking, “I should hope not! If I don’t want you, why would I want someone like you

Sometimes the person you really need is the one you didn’t think you wanted.

Moving on is simple, it’s what you leave behind that makes it so difficult.

Trying to forget someone you love is like trying to remember someone you never knew.

The pain of having a broken heart is not so much as to kill you, yet not so little as to let you live.

If someone you love hurts you cry a river, build a bridge, and get over it.

Never be sad for what is over, just be glad that it was once yours.

The hardest part of dreaming about someone you love is having to wake up.

I was born the day I met you, lived a while when you loved me, died a little when we broke apart.

The worst way to love someone is to sit next to them, knowing they don’t love you back.

You don’t realize how much you care about someone until they don’t care about you.